On this day, God wants you to know
... that it is time to finally forgive yourself. You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about.

I'm saving all my love for you lyrics - Whitney Huston

Daughtry - Over You

I

MISS YOU SO MUCH.....

Only Reminds me Of You

I see you beside me,Its only a dream, a vision of what used to be,
the laughter, the sorrow pictures in time fading memories.

How could I ever let you go, Is it to late to let you know.....

I tried to run from your side but each place I hide,
It only reminds me of you, when I turn out all the lights
even at nights its only reminds me of you...

I needed my freedom, thats what I've thought
But I was a fool to believe, My hearts lied when you cried
Rivers of tears but i was too blind to see.

Everything weve been through before now it means so much more.....

I tried to run from your side but each place I hide,
It only reminds me of you, when I turn out all the lights
even at nights its only reminds me of you... only you...

So come back to me, I'm down on my knee, Boy can't you see..

How could I ever let you go, Is it to late to let you know.....

I tried to run from your side but each place I hide,
It only reminds me of you, when I turn out all the lights
even at nights its only reminds me of you...


I tried to run from your side but each place I hide,
It only reminds me of you, when I turn out all the lights
even at nights its only reminds me of you...

You, You,,,

Only reminds me of you.......

STORM

As I started to picture the trees in the storm, the answer began to dawn on me. The trees in the storm don't try to stand up straight and tall and erect. They allow themselves to bend and be blown with the wind. They understand the power of letting go...
Those trees and those branches that try to hard to stand up strong and straight are the ones that break...
Now is the time for you to be strong, or you too will break....

Letting go.....

Building walls around my heart to save me,But its time for me to let it go.....
When I think that LOVE will never find me I run away but still its right behind me,its just something that I can't control....

All We'd ever need

Boy, its been all this time and i can't get you off my mind and nobody knows it but me
I stare at your photograph, still sleep in the shirt you left and nobody knows it but me
Every day I wipe my tears away so many nights I prayed for you to say
I should've been chasing you, I should've been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
I should've said all the things that i kept inside of me
Then maybe I could've made you believe,that what we had was all we'd ever need
My friends think I'm moving on but the truth is I'm not that strong
And nobody knows it but me, I've kept all the word you've said in a box underneath my bed
and nobody knows it but me. But if your happy I'll get through somehow but the truth is I've been screeming out...

Faith

I sometimes lose sleep over the pain people are in right now, the tough situation,the unpredictability of our mother nature and the death of thousand of people all over the world...as much as my heart is moved, I can't worry about the whole world. I can't fix it. But how about the person near me? To that person I can extend LOVE, GRACE and KINDNESS.To my own children, to them I can offer HUGS and encouragement...and JESUS will do the rest, Have Faith in HIM coz He is our LORD GOD....Our SAVIOR.....

HUGS

Talked to my kids thru skype Missed them so much...that is my youngest Adrian He is 9 years old..Love you so much baby....

All About Us!!!!

Year 2000 May 8 we meet again at our friend house, that was the best time of my life after praying and begging GOD, He finally answered!I've prayed so hard for you to come into my life....adrian came to us and many years had passed by.... 10 years we've been together, some good some bad but then i thank GOD for bringing you into my life.... and now asking HIM again that someday we can be together again.... I will love you forever even im far and even were not together now...

Know what??? Its my six months here in CALIFORNIA. I remember when I first glance at this place up there I ask myself IS THIS AMERICA???? ALL MOUNTAINS AND VALLEYS ??? Its not what I am expecting it was. I was looking for all the Bldgs and crouded like the one we saw in the movie.... hahahaha

Well this is it!!!! 6 months now,,, looking back I thought of someone I really care about in Philippine. I missed Him so much though were not always in good term but still I missed Him so much....I misse my kids especially Adrian.....I Love You Guyzzzzz so much....

feel old today
My body hurts, my mind is slow
An unknown chill creeps within
and weariness seeps through my bones.
Like an undulating wave the feeling
spreads from head to toe.

I feel old today
Giving my mouth a smile that 
my eyes do not reflect,
Speaking words of comfort and
cheer I do not feel,
And trying to hide it all from
A world that goes on it's merry
way as though I don't exist.

Like a hollow eyed child
whose belly is swollen with hunger
and the pain of abandonment,
My soul screams out with the
injustice I cannot change.
No one seems to hear, or
understand, or care,
And I feel so old.

I fear becoming what I see and hear.
My heart has no tears left.
Where once the joy bubbled freely
from a depthless well,
Only the echoes remain, like
huge cracks in sun dried mud....
I feel so very old today.

sometimes we tend to hurt people who loves us so much.... but do we have a choice? if our heart says we doesnt love them anymore...? :( Sorry if I hurt  you.. .. you've been so good to me... but I dont think you deserve someone like me... =( I pray to God everything will be alright.....

“Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. Let each of you look out . . . for the interests of others.”Philippians 2:3-4

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ME-In the last few years I've seen myself as a woman who is trying to be someone different...I guess now I did something better for myself......I'm a BRAVEHEART woman..........